So I was just reading this story that I am supposed to illustrate for this magazine and I’m not sure about it. I’m pretty sure I know what I am going to draw for it, only it’s not really written very well. The idea of it is pretty good, but that’s about where it ends with being good. Stylistically the writer seems to be using words that they do not fully understand the meaning and where they should be placed as well as doesn’t know what complete paragraphs are since everything is broken in to two or three sentence paragraphs at best. I’m not saying I’m a super writer here, but you know I can recognize good and ad writing when I see it and point out what’s wrong with it. I kind of what to ask the editor if I can just re-write it then illustrate it, but I don’ think I will since that is not fair to the original writer. I do need to ask him if I can post the drawings here or not, like I normally post my works in progress.
I think I have decided that I am not going to move out with Jeff. The only real reason I have to move in with him is to help him out and to have Cable internet and I have been thinking about it a lot and have come to the conclusion that neither of those things are worth me going broke over. I have a car payment and a credit card to make payments on and I really want to just save money up for when I want to buy a house. I talked to my parents and they said they are fine with me staying where I am. I also asked if I could move back upstairs into my old room and take over the whole of the loft and the spare room as well as possibly my fathers office if I help him rebuild his office downstairs in my old room and my mom said that was all fine as well with the exception of maybe not moving my fathers office. I guess that would be fine, he doesn’t really go up there anyway. I mean if I can get the whole of the upper garage for myself and basically turn it into a good sized apartment for myself with a bedroom, spare room, living room office and such, though it would still have no bathroom…that’s ok though I can deal. It would be the same if I was living on my own really, I would have EVERYTHING I would have, actually more then if I was living with Jeff because I would have all that room to myself AND I would save $400 a month. Plus I don’t really care if people might think I am a loser for technically living with my parents, I mean it’s not like I live in the house or in their basement or anything, it’s a separate building. It’s like if I was renting a loft at an old ladies house, only the old lady is my mom and the loft is finished and the rent is free.
It would still be hard on the whole bringing a girl home and explaining that I don’t technically live with my parents just on their property thing… oh well, if a girl cant accept me for who I am and what I do then she doesn’t deserve me right?
I read Neil Gaiman and Will Wheaton’s blogs and I think you should too, but that’s not why I am bringing it up. I am bringing them up mainly because I want to write blogs like that, ones that people actually read. I guess if I was someone of some sot of importance this would be, but you know can’t I just be that one person who writes interesting shit about his life that people enjoy reading about? That occasionally post drawings and things he finds online? I should make more of an effort to expand my readership…haha I like that I call it that, makes me feel like I matter. Someday maybe.
Speaking of mattering I really need to get some y2cl strips finished and posted, I have a ton drawn scanned and flat coloured, I just need to finish the rest of them and post them up. This is another reason why I really want to get the money together to buy that convertible tablet laptop so I can get strips coloured here at work then just post them when I get home. I have about $292 saved up so far, and I can save up more at a faster pace now since I’m not going to move out and do not need to pay rent. That’s an extra $350 a month I would probably put most of it away towards this laptop since there really isn’t anything I need to be spending money on besides my bills right now. I’m really upset with myself that I have been slacking on getting new strips up but graveyard shift really fucks with me being able to do anything outside of this. It is so hard to sleep during the day, anything past 3pm is almost impossible. That means if I manage to fall asleep by 10am and get up at 3pm like I have been, I get 5 hours of sleep. Then I’m up and just lethargic all day and then I take a nap from 9pm to 12am before I have to work just because I’m afraid if I don’t I will just be so incredibly tired I wont be able to function while I am here at work. Not that it really fucking matters since I do jack and shit while I am here, but that’s beside the point. When my boss comes in at 9am I like to be at least functional, and days like today when the owner comes in I would hate to be passed out behind the desk and get fired.
Honestly, I can’t wait to be able to quit this job for a better one, it seriously is not worth it. I make so little here and I feel like a loser cause of it. I really hope I can get in an internship at Keyport soon and get a little better pay. I think I should email my resume to the lady when I get home, only I don’t know if it looks good enough. We shall see.