I like to consider myself a pretty well rounded person that in the fact that I spent a lot of time in my late teens early twenties watching a lot of really messed up stuff on the internet to desensitize myself to anything horrific. I’ve watched Faces of death, I’ve watched some very gross videos on rotten.com, eFukt.com and stileproject.com (before it was a pornsite).  I like to think that I could watch/read anything and not be disturbed by it.

Then I got married and had kids. Everything changed.

There is a current story here in Kitsap County about a little girl who was abducted, raped and killed by a 17 year old neighbor.

I can not read any of these articles. I’m a grown man and not afraid to admit that this shit will make my cry. I have a 6 year old daughter and even thinking about this makes me think of it happening to her. My wife read a bunch of them and it made her extremely upset while I have been doing my best to avoid them. I have a hard time even watching those murder true life shows if they are about things happening to kids.

I think it was having the kids that made it all change for me. Makes it all hit way closer to home now. I want to live in a world where nothing bad happens to kids, but I know that’s not a reality. I don’t know what I would do if anything ever happened to one of my kids. Probably loose my shit.

I feel for this little girls family and hope them the best through this tough time.